More Happy Than Not by Adam Silvera


“The boy with no direction taught me something unforgettable: happiness comes again if you let it.”

Title: More Happy Than Not
Author: Adam Silvera
Why you should read this book: This is a wonderful book about ugly things, things that make us uncomfortable, angry and sad, things that need to disappear.

“Happiness shouldn’t be this hard.”

Aaron is a 16-year old dealing with a lot of pain. His father committed suicide a few months ago and he tried taking his own life before realizing how selfish that decision was. He has a girlfriend and friends he hangs out with. One day during a game he meets Thomas and they instantly became best friends. When his girlfriend Genevieve leaves for an art camp he is left with his not too happy thoughts, his friends that don’t really get what he’s been through and Thomas, the only one who he feels happy with. Aaron realizes he is having deep feelings for his new friend, feelings he can’t let anyone know, and he decides that only the memory alteration procedure Leteo Institute offers can save him from who he really is.

“Memories: some can be sucker punching, others carry you forward; some stay with you forever, others you forget on your own. You can’t really know which ones you’ll survive if you don’t stay on the battlefield, bad times shooting at you like bullets. But if you’re lucky, you’ll have plenty of good times to shield you.”

A lot of feelings were given to me by this little book.
I’m a little heartbroken. A little because I liked how it ended. The last sentence of the book is my favorite, simple but it hits you because you know everything that’s behind it.
I’m angry, like SUPER angry, because reading this made me realize how real this situation is. How homophobia is still too present in society. What says about human beings if you are afraid of being who you are because you might get beaten to death because of it?? What says about us if the only way to be “happy” is to forget about who we are so that we can be accepted into the world?
That’s sick and it makes me so mad!!

In this book’s reality there is the Leteo Institute that helps you forget about things you can’t live on if you remember them. A dead child, husband, brother, a very hard situation, etc. How convenient. I can’t say it’s easy to live with pain. I don’t want to generalize and say you have to live with it and keep going with your life. It’s hard, days seem to never end, thoughts crush you, you feel your soul leaving your body. It’s not nice at all but of course I would never want to forget. These experiences, sad, heartbreaking, scary, are the ones that make me who I am now. I may have lots of problems but I’m me and I like being me.

“We all make mistakes… but it’s also a step in the right direction. If nothing else it’s a step away from the wrong one.”

Homophobia, bullying, racism are things that always makes me feel violent against other people. I hate violence but ignorance makes me so angry because it’s EASY to be a nice person and let people live their life with whoever makes them happy!!
Aaron’s friends, his father and the other ignorant guys are the worst. The scenes with them were really hard to read, I wanted to punch them all.
We are brainwashed thinking there is a “normal” and you have to do things that make you be “normal”. There is no normal. People are hardheaded, I’m afraid changing them is impossible and it makes me feel really sad. I still do, in my little world, everything I can to stand for what I believe is right.

I was thinking about this book this morning (I finished it yestersay night) and a dumb metaphor came to me. I always think of dumb metaphors. I have to start writing them down.

There are different breakfast people. Some like salty food, some like sweet food, some only coffee, some healthy smoothies, etc. I am a salty breakfast person. When I meet a sweet breakfast person I am not being made fun of because I eat differently from them. It’s still breakfast and if a sandwich makes me happy there is nothing wrong about it. There is not a “normal” breakfast, maybe there is a kind of breakfast that the majority of people likes. People with different breakfast tastes can eat together, the conversation will still be the same, everyone it’s still nice to eat together, what you have on your plate doesn’t matter, even if I’m eating eggs, you a donut, and another person rice. Looks easy, right? Exactly!! Because that’s how it is suppose to be.

Dumb metaphor aside, this book is really important. I read people saying it’s unforgettable and it really is. You start seeing a reality, you think you know how things are going to continue….WRONG. Part one introduced me to who Aaron was and I got to know him, I liked who he was, I didn’t like his friends, I felt he was in pain but he was looking for happiness. Part zero destroyed me, I can’t say anything about it, I am not able to say anything about it. Part two gave the book an ending I accepted and liked, it was how it needed to end. This book will make you think a lot. Life won’t be the same and it doesn’t matter, you won’t want it to be the same. Thanks to the author for giving us this important book.

I won’t forget him.

Do I recommend it? Yes, this is one of those books that you carry in your heart, one that you want to share with the world but, at the same time, you want to have it all for yourself.
Rate: 5/5


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