Down by Contact by Santino Hassell

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5stars

“We’re gonna be awesome, Simeon. For real.”
“How do you know?”
“Because . . .” I squeezed him in a bear hug. “Something that feels this good can’t go wrong.”

Title: Down by Contact
Author: Santino Hassell
Series: The Barons #2

Number of pages: 220 (kindle edition)
Good things about this book: Once it’s there, it’s a cheese fest and I loved it.
Bad things about this book: Nothing of importance.
Do I recommend it? Yes, the two books of this series are great.
Rate: 5/5

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It’s so hard to put down a Santino book; I know this even if I’ve only read Illegal Contact and the first super long book of the In the Company of Shadows series. It was so hard to put down even when my eyes were so blurry I couldn’t see much. I did find the strength to do it at midnight the day before finishing it but the day after, with all the interruptions of my little niece who wanted to play, I managed to finish it. And I loved it like I knew I would have. So cheesy and sexy. Denial and frustration galore. Stubborn boys built like mountains. There was little not to love.

Simeon and Adrián are not friends; their hate started after Simeon left the Predators to go play with the Barons and has been on fire for years. Now they have to work together for a punishment and they need to tolerate each other. Being so close will make them question their eternal hate and understand exactly why they behave the way they do. There is so much more hidden beneath the muscles and the boys must dig in and show each other who they really are and what do they want.

As usual, I didn’t understand anything about football. For me it was pointless to understand how the matches, if they are called that, worked. I wanted to see these beautiful creatures far from their natural habitat and see why the hell Adrián was being homophobic and hurtful for no apparent reasons and why Simeon was trying his best to flirt with him to mess with his mind, and body.

The results were both anger and delight. Both of them were stubborn so it took a while for Adrián to question his homophobic behavior. From what we knew at the beginning, no spoilers here, Adrián was allegedly straight, but he seems to have strong feelings for Simeon. Everything seemed to fall into the bisexual bubble and I was overjoyed but then something felt wrong. There are so many ways to identify oneself and if Adrián felt that bisexual fit then it’s 100% perfect, but maybe I wanted this to be looked into a bit more. Maybe another shoe would’ve fit better, I don’t know. If not, welcome aboard Adrián!

That little issue aside, I found the book perfect and it delivered exactly what it promised. I wasn’t disappointed. I wonder if there’s going to be another book. I’ll stalk the socials for clues!

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Release by Patrick Ness ☆

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5starsplus

“Ain’t no shame in a broken heart.”

Title: Release
Author: Patrick Ness
Good things about this book: The way Ness writes is bewitching!
Bad things about this book: Nothing, at least for me. Check the trigger warnings before reading, though.
Do I recommend it? Yes, absolutely.
Rate: 5+++/5
☆: It made my “favourite books” list

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I couldn’t put it down and this is the third Ness’s book that has done this to me. I loved it with all my heart; there is something in Ness’s books that resonates with my soul and I feel them embracing me and cuddling me. The magic touch, at first peculiar, settles into the narration almost unnoticed and unforced. All of this makes Release one hell of a book to read and treasure.

This is not the easiest of books, it is a book about life and the obstacles it throws at you; it gives you hope in a better future if you’re willing to fight for it. It is so hard to fight for something you don’t think you deserve because you’ve been “taught” that what you are goes against nature, against the will of a lord you think doesn’t really care how you live your life.

“Through prayer, everything is possible-“
“I don’t know, I’ve prayed for years to change your heart. Nothing’s happened so far.”

Adam Thorn doesn’t believe he deserves being loved. He grew up in a very religious family being the son that’s different in a way they don’t dare to say out loud. Adam is gay and his family thinks it’s merely a phase, they think what he feels is not real. How much realer can it be if it breaks his heart in a million pieces? Adam Thorn has loved and his broken heart is the result of it. Will he ever let go of the past and fight for a future worth living? Will he ever let go of the boy he gave his all to but apparently was never willing to give anything back?

Where on earth had this day come from? And where was it headed?

We follow Adam throughout one day of his life; one day that will change everything. He will wake up, run errands, exercise, go to work, help his father and say goodbye to the boy who broke his heart. It’s going to be a long day, a day of news that will test his mind and episodes that will test his heart. Today everything changes.

He starts his day going to buy flowers his mother will certainly hate, and then running to clear his mind thinking how everything he does is never and will never be enough. He wants to go away and be himself but at the same time he is struggling to find some kind of peace in a home that has conditions for you to be worth being in it.

He can’t evade and find peace at work either with a boss sexual harassing him who knows pretty well how these accusations will go away easily; after all, who will believe a 17-year-old gay boy saying his boss touches him inappropriately? Here comes the frustration, the realization that a teenage boy is helpless, unable to reach for help because the world has this unbelievably twisted conviction that teenagers can only say lies and you should never believe them.

“They’re your parents. They’re meant to love you because. Never in spite.”

Adam finds his peace with Angela, his best friend. She is a tough girl and she is there for him whenever he needs it. Her family is different, open minded and kind, a safe refuge when he needs to get away from his cruel reality. Angela and Adam are a wonderful duo, ready to take the world head high. Their flashbacks show how incredible their friendship is.

“I’m always gay?”
“In every universe.”
“That makes sense. Are you always short?”
“Except in the universes where I’m Beyoncé.”
“In some universes, we’re all Beyoncé.”

I was so happy about Angela because at this point in the book I was ready to fight everyone who was in the way of my big blonde guy and his happiness. Adam deserves the world and I was more than ready to give it to him. Letting go is hard, painful, but once it’s done you’re free to live and start again. Our brain is one hell of an instrument: it tortures us when it decides on its own accord to fish memories you wanted hidden. Mastering the cohabitation with your bad memories is the way to keep them at bay and not letting them hurt you ever again. They are there, you sense them, but they don’t control you; you don’t allow them to do it.

Will Adam be ready to let go? This day will decide it; it will decide his fate.

While we follow Adam on the day his life is going to change forever, a spirit called by one single, an apparently innocent, action will leave the safety of her home to answer questions she doesn’t even know were asked. The magical realism, very similar to the one in the other Ness’ favourite of mine “The Rest of Us Just Live Here”, can seem out of place but you need to let it flow, no questions asked. It’s a parallel quest, seemingly unrelated, to our Adam’s journey, that will set in motion the end of the world, as we know it.

This book left me shaken. I related to parts of the book and sympathize with everything else. I was frustrated and angry, I wanted to scream, I wanted to cry but I also wanted to have hope and believe that maybe the world doesn’t really hate us the way we sometimes think. That maybe we can build ourselves a safe heaven in the midst of our not so very perfect lives.

I loved Release and it confirmed my love for Patrick Ness and the way he writes. It’s a hit or miss in my opinion and I understand when the story doesn’t reach everyone the way it reached me. Nonetheless, it is a story worth reading.

“Never pass up the chance to be kissing someone. It’s the worst kind of regret.”

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