More Happy Than Not by Adam Silvera

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“The boy with no direction taught me something unforgettable: happiness comes again if you let it.”

Title: More Happy Than Not
Author: Adam Silvera
Why you should read this book: This is a wonderful book about ugly things, things that make us uncomfortable, angry and sad, things that need to disappear.

“Happiness shouldn’t be this hard.”

Aaron is a 16-year old dealing with a lot of pain. His father committed suicide a few months ago and he tried taking his own life before realizing how selfish that decision was. He has a girlfriend and friends he hangs out with. One day during a game he meets Thomas and they instantly became best friends. When his girlfriend Genevieve leaves for an art camp he is left with his not too happy thoughts, his friends that don’t really get what he’s been through and Thomas, the only one who he feels happy with. Aaron realizes he is having deep feelings for his new friend, feelings he can’t let anyone know, and he decides that only the memory alteration procedure Leteo Institute offers can save him from who he really is.

“Memories: some can be sucker punching, others carry you forward; some stay with you forever, others you forget on your own. You can’t really know which ones you’ll survive if you don’t stay on the battlefield, bad times shooting at you like bullets. But if you’re lucky, you’ll have plenty of good times to shield you.”

A lot of feelings were given to me by this little book.
I was ANGRY-SAD-ANGRY-SAD-MOSTLY ANGRY!
I’m a little heartbroken. A little because I liked how it ended. The last sentence of the book is my favorite, simple but it hits you because you know everything that’s behind it.
I’m angry, like SUPER angry, because reading this made me realize how real this situation is. How homophobia is still too present in society. What says about human beings if you are afraid of being who you are because you might get beaten to death because of it?? What says about us if the only way to be “happy” is to forget about who we are so that we can be accepted into the world?
That’s sick and it makes me so mad!!

In this book’s reality there is the Leteo Institute that helps you forget about things you can’t live on if you remember them. A dead child, husband, brother, a very hard situation, etc. How convenient. I can’t say it’s easy to live with pain. I don’t want to generalize and say you have to live with it and keep going with your life. It’s hard, days seem to never end, thoughts crush you, you feel your soul leaving your body. It’s not nice at all but of course I would never want to forget. These experiences, sad, heartbreaking, scary, are the ones that make me who I am now. I may have lots of problems but I’m me and I like being me.

“We all make mistakes… but it’s also a step in the right direction. If nothing else it’s a step away from the wrong one.”

Homophobia, bullying, racism are things that always makes me feel violent against other people. I hate violence but ignorance makes me so angry because it’s EASY to be a nice person and let people live their life with whoever makes them happy!!
Aaron’s friends, his father and the other ignorant guys are the worst. The scenes with them were really hard to read, I wanted to punch them all.
We are brainwashed thinking there is a “normal” and you have to do things that make you be “normal”. There is no normal. People are hardheaded, I’m afraid changing them is impossible and it makes me feel really sad. I still do, in my little world, everything I can to stand for what I believe is right.

I was thinking about this book this morning (I finished it yestersay night) and a dumb metaphor came to me. I always think of dumb metaphors. I have to start writing them down.

There are different breakfast people. Some like salty food, some like sweet food, some only coffee, some healthy smoothies, etc. I am a salty breakfast person. When I meet a sweet breakfast person I am not being made fun of because I eat differently from them. It’s still breakfast and if a sandwich makes me happy there is nothing wrong about it. There is not a “normal” breakfast, maybe there is a kind of breakfast that the majority of people likes. People with different breakfast tastes can eat together, the conversation will still be the same, everyone it’s still nice to eat together, what you have on your plate doesn’t matter, even if I’m eating eggs, you a donut, and another person rice. Looks easy, right? Exactly!! Because that’s how it is suppose to be.

Dumb metaphor aside, this book is really important. I read people saying it’s unforgettable and it really is. You start seeing a reality, you think you know how things are going to continue….WRONG. Part one introduced me to who Aaron was and I got to know him, I liked who he was, I didn’t like his friends, I felt he was in pain but he was looking for happiness. Part zero destroyed me, I can’t say anything about it, I am not able to say anything about it. Part two gave the book an ending I accepted and liked, it was how it needed to end. This book will make you think a lot. Life won’t be the same and it doesn’t matter, you won’t want it to be the same. Thanks to the author for giving us this important book.

I won’t forget him.

Do I recommend it? Yes, this is one of those books that you carry in your heart, one that you want to share with the world but, at the same time, you want to have it all for yourself.
Rate: 5/5

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Carry On by Rainbow Rowell

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“He smiles, and he’s made of trouble.”

Title: Carry On
Author: Rainbow Rowell
Why you should read this book: magic, young love, vampires, ghosts, mysteries to solve!

If you haven’t read the book “Fangirl” by Rainbow Rowell don’t read the summary nor the review because it may contain spoilers.

Simon Snow is preparing himself for his last year at the Watford School of Magicks and he is hoping it can be better than all the previous years. Unfortunately as soon as he arrives there are only bad news waiting for him: his mentor, The Mage, wants to send him away to protect him, and his girlfriend Agatha broke up with him because she fell in love with his nemesis and roommate, Baz. And guess what? Baz didn’t even show for the beginning of school and that is driving Simon crazy!
The Mages world is threatened by the Humdrum, an evil entity that swallows magic wherever he shows, and it seems that it follows Simon ruining all his hopes for a relaxing and quiet last year of school.

Loved it, loved it, really loved it!! I was already in love with the characters from Cath’s fanfics but now that I truly know them I love them a whole lot more. Simon, the terrible chosen one obsessed with his roommate, Baz, a charming and rich student with a secret. Penny, Simon’s best friend and powerful mage and Agatha…I don’t like her, from beginning to end I didn’t like her. Sorry!

I always love when stories are told from different POVs (like Eleanor & Park), every chapter seen from a different perspective so that the reader can see what’s really going on in the characters’ heads. I love the parts where the POVs were switching every few sentences. If you’ve read the book you’ll know exactly what glorious part I’m referring to. I still have goose bumps. Sometimes I think my heart will not get excited over teenager’s feelings because I’m, let’s say, an older lady, but then these painful feelings of love start inside my heart and explode like a supernova!

“For a moment — not even a moment, a split second — I imagine him saying, ‘The truth is, I’m desperately attracted to you.’ And then I imagine myself spitting in his face. and then I imagine licking it off his cheek and kissing him. (Because I’m disturbed. Ask Anyone.)”

Simon & Baz are fictional characters of a fictional book inside Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell. Cath, the main character of the book, writes fan fictions about them being in love. Knowing these premises we know that Simon & Baz are going to be together, in love, a mage and a mage/vampire. Roommates at first then something more. We don’t know exactly how this is going to happen because in Fangirl we are only shown a few chapters of the fanfic but we know that love is just behind the corner for these two guys who think they hate each other. Yeah, sure, hate!

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How cute are they?

The plot of Carry On is not focused on romance, is focused on two different situations: the battle of the mages world against the insidious humdrum and finding the truth behind a very important event that happened a long time ago in Watford. Simon will have his best friend Penelope, Penny, to help him and Baz. Will they be able to collaborate without fighting all the time? Will Simon understand what is that feeling he’s had in him for a very long time?

My otp is adorable beyond compare! I was grinning from ear to ear all the time! I read about them fighting and all I could think about was “Just kiss each other”!

The only think I didn’t 100% love was the ending. I found it a little hasty. I know the book was already long enough but I thought there were a couple of things that needed more explanation. A part from that everything was perfect! I think I will think about this story for a very long time.

Do I recommend it? Yes, Simon & Baz will steal your heart.
Rate: 5/5

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Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda by Becky Albertalli ☆

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“The way I feel about him is like a heartbeat — soft and persistent, underlying everything.”

Title: Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda
Author: Becky Albertalli
Why you should read this book: It left me giggling for hours because it was adorable!

Simon is a 16-year-old boy who is gay but only his penpal friend Blue knows it. His secret is save until Martin, the class clown, found his email account still logged in and starts blackmailing him: if Simon doesn’t help him with her friend, Abby, he is going to reveal his secret to the whole school. Simon doesn’t know Blue’s true identity and Blue doesn’t know his either but if Martin tells his secret their relationship may be in jeopardy. What is Simon going to do?

“It is definitely annoying that straight (and white, for that matter) is the default, and that the only people who have to think about their identity are the ones who don’t fit that mold. Straight people really should have to come out, and the more awkward it is, the better. Awkwardness should be a requirement.”

Wonderful, sweet, adorable!! When I finished reading it I started smiling so much my face hurt. I re-read the par I didn’t expect to love it this much, it took my heart and filled it with love, music and oreos!

Simon is in high school, is in drama club, has a small group of friends, a loving family and a wonderful dog called Bieber (yes, like Justin Bieber). One day he sees a post on tumblr by a guy in his school about being gay and after posting an answer they begin writing emails to each other without revealing their true identities. Simon has friends: singing Nick who is in love with the new girl Abby, and manga/fanfic lover Leah who is in love with Nick. They are a nice group and at lunch they are met by other people like Nick’s soccer friends, adorable Bram and Garrett. The manga, fanfic and movie references are the best! *gay dementor*

But who is Blue?? By the emails he wrote it was almost impossible to guess his true identity. We know he is from the same school but that’s it, that’s all we know. I knew he had to be someone Simon interacted with at some point, maybe a lot, maybe not so much, but they talked, I was sure of that. I started wanting this guy to be Blue, I liked him but then something made me think he wasn’t interested in boys so I didn’t know what to think. Luckily it was indeed him and when I found out I was so happy I started smiling and never stopped! I’m still smiling!

THE FREAKING EMAILS!!!! (Freaking Casanova!). Couldn’t the emails be any cuter? I love how they were innocent at first but then they started flirting more and more and they got embarrassed. Aww they are adorable!

After finishing the book I had a craving for Oreos. If you read the book you will need to eat them, I think it’s mandatory. Oreos with everything, Oreos everywhere, Oreos for breakfast, lunch, and dinner!

I won’t say more. There are a lot of happy, sad and angry moments with his family and friends but writing about them means you will know what is going to happen and you won’t enjoy the book as much as this book deserves to be enjoyed.

“Anyway, we have something for you.”
“Is it another awkward anecdote about me breast-feeding?”
“Oh my God, you were all about the boob,” my dad says. “I can’t believe you turned out to be gay.”
“Hilarious, Dad.”

For a moment I was seriously scared about everything that was happening and I had the feeling something bad was just around the corner. There were so many times my feelings were crushing my heart, it was painful.
Yes, the more painful the better. That’s how I like my books: sweet with a side of ANGST!!!

This book is a gem, everyone should read it. This is a book I will gladly read again in the future.

Do I recommend it? Yes, 500% yes.
Rate: 5+++/5
☆: It made my “favourite books” list

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Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Benjamin Alire Sáenz ☆

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Title: Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe
Author:
Benjamin Alire Sáenz
Why you should read this book: everything about this book is important, everyone should read it!

Aristotle, for short Ari, is 15 years old, he has trouble talking about his feelings and he doesn’t have any friends. But then he met Dante at the pool where he taught him how to swim. Dante knows how to do a lot of things Ari can’t. He shows him how to love books, poetry books, art and life.
This is a story about family, friendship and love. This is a story about life.

It is so true: we all fight our private wars.
It took me a long time to finish this book because I read it really slowly, so slowly that the characters kept living their days in my head when I didn’t know what they were really doing. In my head I invented what they were doing during the days that weren’t described in the book. I really wish I’m not the only one doing it. It feels weird but also it feels good, like I’m contributing in some way to the development of the story.

Let’s talk about the two magnificent boys in this wonderful book. Aristotle is a great main character, smart, conflicted, a 15-year old boy, with all the problems that age come with. He has holes in his life, so many things are not how they’re supposed to be. In his house there is silence. He has a big brother that everyone pretend doesn’t exist because he is in prison but nobody wants to tell Ari anything about him. This makes him feel incomplete. He doesn’t like to talk about his feelings so as a result he is always angry with the world.
Then along came Dante, a bright young man with a warm smile and a shoeless way to live his life. They are so different and they unknowingly help each other. Dante is curious about everything, he is experimenting in life because if you have doubts about who you really are you have to try a lot of things so that you can figure out what makes you happy, what it’s worth fighting for.

Their friendship is one I can only dream of. They don’t always talk, they are often quiet, they fight, they find out a lot about themselves when they think of each other. They fit perfectly together, no wonder they become best friends almost right away.

I could give this book a thousand stars and still I’d feel is not enough. When a book makes me feel this way it can only mean that it’s perfect, the perfect book to love, to think about when things are not great, when you need to smile a little.

I love how smiles were so important. Smiles where described a lot: sweet, sad, enigmatic, fake. Smiles are what I love the most about human beings (and every other being on this planet), they’re the first thing I look at in a person.
Have you ever watched a person smile and his face and whole body just start glowing? There’s magic in smiles, something it’s not easy to describe, you have to see it and feel it. Rest assure, when you see that kind of smile, no matter how bad is your day/week/month/year/life, for a couple of seconds everything disappears and you find yourself smiling and everything just feels right. Yeah, just perfectly right!

What an incredible book, don’t miss it.
So let’s smile and look at the stars!

Do I recommend it? Yes, 500% yes.
Rate: 5+++/5
☆: It made my “favourite books” list

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