[ARC] The Academy by Quinn Anderson

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3stars

Earlier, when the party was in full swing, I looked around and thought to myself that something was missing. From the party. From my apartment. From my life. I couldn’t figure out what it was. But now, as I lay here, I think I finally know. It’s you.

Title: The Academy
Author: Quinn Anderson
Release date: September 17th 2018
Good things about this book: The characters are really nice and the feelings super sweet.
Bad things about this book: It could’ve been shorter, imo.
Do I recommend it? Yes, it’s a sweet love story.
Rate: 3/5

Read the summary and add this book on Goodreads: here

ARC from NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.

PLOT —
It dragged a little with the inner monologues and the Academy, the college they were in, and the title of this book, was soon forgotten. I would have loved to see more things happening in the Academy, but it was still nice to experience the college life through Nick’s eyes.

CHARACTERS —
Nick was a bit too overdramatic. Everything was this big guilt trip for him and also for Sebastian. Everything. They couldn’t enjoy anything with pages and pages of inner monologues why they shouldn’t be enjoying said thing. I wanted to slap some sense into both of them. There were really cute scenes, though. Some borderline cheesy as hell. I love those. Sebastian is a cutie!

THOUGHTS —
I liked the idea of a playboy finding real love for the first time and leaving his playboy days behind. It’s one of the many tropes I love, so I was completely okay with how the story unfolded. It had its ups and downs, being a little slow, but in the end, it was a cute and sweet story. And we had a couple of steamy scenes and wow, I liked those a lot.

CONCLUSION —
I liked the ending, the epilogue was really nice and all the on-page characters, mains and sides, were all interesting. I will certainly keep reading books by this author. They are both romantic and emotional.

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[ARC] Under the Midnight Sun by Lore Graham

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3stars

Title: Under the Midnight Sun
Author: Lore Graham
Release date: August 15th 2018
Good things about this book: It has a lot of potential and a very nice main character.
Bad things about this book: It’s too shorts everything is rushed and forced.
Do I recommend it? Yes, I’ll give it a chance if I were you.
Rate: 3/5

Read the summary and add this book on Goodreads: here

As much as I enjoyed it with all the myths and likeable characters, it felt rushed. Too many things unexplained. Too many things just happened, just like that. The steamy scenes were a bit weird to read; there aren’t many penises synonymous and the ones used sounded funny in that explicit context. They made me laugh, breaking the atmosphere of a promising naughty scene.

The book was too short. I think that with some adjustments and some more chapter between some scenes, this could be a great book. A solid 4-star, maybe even 5! It has a lot of potential but I feel it was left unfulfilled.

The love story, as sweet as it was, felt forced when it began. I loved how Otto was starting to feel his heart longing for someone after being in mourning for three years, but then things just happened. Not many words said and they were already madly and nakedly in love. It felt weird given how grumpy and borderline rude Lukas was to Otto from the beginning.

Loved their freedom of loving whoever they wanted, and the society not having problems with who you decided to be with. It was refreshing not witnessing the usual hiding ones attraction because it’s forbidden or illegal or looked as unnatural. Felt good.

It was an enjoyable book, if short, that I didn’t want to put down even if it was somewhat predictable so it didn’t make me worry about the characters’ wellbeing. Still, I’m glad I requested this book and read it.

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[ARC] Nyxia Unleashed by Scott Reintgen

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5stars

We’re weapons. They made us this way.

Title: Nyxia Unleashed
Author: Scott Reintgen
Series: The Nyxia Triad #2

Number of pages: 400 (kindle edition)
Good things about this book: So many twists, such an intriguing story!
Bad things about this book: That ending left me wanting the next book now!! (not a bad thing, I know)
Do I recommend it? Yes, of course!
Rate: 5/5

Read the summary and add this book on Goodreads: here

ARC given to me by NetGalley

I didn’t expect anything to go the way it went. Everything caught me by surprise. I’m speechless after those last chapters, and I need the third and last book like right now because I don’t think I can’t wait a minute longer. I love sci-fi novels, and I love when sequels are as good as the first books, or even better. Color me shaken and excited. But mostly shaken!

I started the book barely remembering all the character’s names and personalities. It’s been a year after all. By the first quarter of the book I was all caught up on the characters and I would’ve killed anyone who wanted to hurt them (all but Isadora. Also, yay for lgbt representation! Do not kill them, please, Mr. Reintgen, PLEASE). By the end I was so messed up by everything that was happening that I almost forgot to pray the alien gods for their safety. It’s not a YA contemporary, lives can be lost, the characters, no matter how important, could die at any moment. I was eternally on edge.

There’s absolutely no way I can write about this book without telling too much, giving up too much information that I got later on the story. The last book ended with Emmett having to fight for his place in a launching pod that’d have taken him to Eden. This book starts right inside the pod with Emmett on his way to the planet’s surface. All the rivalry is put aside as they team up to mine Nyxia, partner up with the Adamites, and sense that things aren’t the way they appear to be. They never are, right?

Emmett is like a living lie detector. He senses when things aren’t right, reading the little tells everyone have when they are not being truthful. Morning is no less; she is truly a force of nature. In the first book I thought their romance was forced because it really was, but now I love them as a couple. They are adorable and care for each other deeply. As much as I didn’t like the way their relationship started, I love how it blossomed to the way we see in this book. They are meant to be together, and I will fight whoever hurt them! I want them safe with their friends on Earth. It’s my wish and I demand it to be granted!

Book series are great and all, but you need to wait months and months for the next book to be published, right? And it’s not only the human memory (mine) that is weak and will make me forget about all the characters, it’s also the fact that I will imagine multiple scenarios in my mind about how this will end, and I will be worried about all the characters’ well-being until the day I’ll read the third and last book. I know some characters won’t make it; they are too many, too easy to sacrifice. How can I live with the knowing that all my babies won’t be happy and safe surrounded by the people they love? A reader’s life is a hard life.

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Inside Darkness by Hudson Lin

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4stars

Title: Inside Darkness
Author: Hudson Lin
Number of pages: 269 (kindle edition)
Good things about this book: A lot of emotions in just a few pages. Intense.
Bad things about this book: Too many emotions to handle, at least for me.
Do I recommend it? Yes.
Rate: 4/5

Read the summary and add this book on Goodreads: here

Arc from NetGalley

I know I’m late! I’ve had this arc for quite some time but I read the summary very fast and only after been approved I realized it was about mental health. I wasn’t in the mood because my mental health is conditioned by what I watch/read so I wanted only bubbly, fluffy, easy books about good feelings, sunshine and rainbows. So days went by and I didn’t start it.

The day it was published I ordered me to read it, and I did, and I liked it. It was hard and it triggered me a little, but all in all it wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be. I actually enjoyed it, even if I read it as fast as I could just to get it over with.

I struggled a lot because the feelings in it were so strong, so deep, and they were like a giant boulder crushing my chest. It was a wild ride, very important and insightful. I learned things I don’t think I’ve ever questioned about. The world is a harsh place and, as much as we like to face it head up, it comes and leaves scars so deep it’s hard to cope.

I’m a bit shaken because this is not entirely a happy story, but it has happy moments and so much hope. When the world seems to be dragging you into the deepest abyss, there can be a ray of sunshine that’ll help us keep the darkness at bay. Whatever it may be, there’s hope about finding it and that’s worth being in this world a little longer. Just to see the light at the end of the darkest of tunnels.

The characters were well written and relatable, old enough to have day by day issues similar to mine. Once in a while it’s refreshing reading about adults not having a precise clue about what to do with their lives and being as human and fragile as I feel most of the time.

Long story short, this book was hopeful and core-shaking, it gave me anxiety, palpitations and a mild panic attack. But in the end, the little smile on my face was reward enough to deem this book worth the time it took me to read it.

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[ARC] Orbiting Bodies by Diana Jean

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5stars

“Sometimes an outgoing person likes the calmness of an introvert.”

Title: Orbiting Bodies
Author: Diana Jean
Good things about this book: It was a precious and true story about love and friendship.
Bad things about this book: Maybe I would have liked more Andrew chapters.
Do I recommend it? Yes! Yes! Yes!
Rate: 5/5

Read the summary and add this book on Goodreads: here

ARC from NetGalley

He was an overwhelming presence, a loud, burning personality. With a gravity of his own, a whole universe spinning around him.

This book was absolutely adorable, pure sweetness and cuteness. I liked it more than I thought I would. I thought it was going to have drama it luckily didn’t have. There were some misunderstandings but, getting to know the characters, you saw it was perfectly normal and things were going to be just fine! I sure hoped everything was going to end okay so I kept reading without stopping, without snacking, so that I could finish it as soon as possible. Only then I could exhale and relax. It was truly marvelous.

I loved Caleb with all my heart, the cutest and craziest boy in the world! Super hyperactive and never stopping because of his ADHD, always looking to making friends, making himself known, flirting with everyone and everything, stopping only (and barely) to sleep. Caleb was precious from beginning to end; when he was being confident and going to 27 clubs, to when he was having an existential crisis about liking Jun more than just as a friend, to coming to terms with his bisexuality and his feelings and brooding like a pro. Caleb was everything and his journey throughout his first year in college was refreshing and exhilarating, ups and downs and everything in between.

I loved Andrew and his backstory. Emo art lover. Caleb orbited his life and changed it. Caleb changed a lot of people with his bubbling personality and contagious smile. Andrew went from “don’t bother me I want to draw” to “I’m confident and I understand what’s healthy for myself”. I loved his friendship with Caleb. Destiny put them together for a very valid reason.

Jun! What can I tell about Jun that will make you understand how precious he is? Nothing! His personality is a mess, caused by a wide variety of things from his childhood, a personality that was built to protect himself from people and their drama. But somehow he finds himself being the center of Caleb’s attention and things become pretty confusing. Jun is precious and he is very logical, introvert and very asocial. Caleb won’t have it easy trying to understand him, even after realizing he likes LIKES him, not only as a friend. I loved Jun and was never angry even when I didn’t agree with his decisions.

Piper’s story was frustrating not because she was ever confused about her feelings for her girlfriend Lizzie but because I was angry at her mother and how she makes he feel about her sexuality. Piper and Lizzie are a very solid couple, super sweet, super caring, and they are pretty important for the developing of the weird friendship/relationship/pining of Jun and Caleb. They are also caught in Caleb’s randomness and he becomes part of their everyday lives. Piper and Lizzie’s story is calm and hopeful and I had a big smile on my face every time they were being sweet girlfriends.

The ending was fantastic, I’m still grinning so much, it was so lovely. I just loved Caleb and I loved the influence he had on each one of them, the way they changed, how everyone changed and got to enjoy college life in a very different and improved way. I loved the sweetness, the fact that they didn’t rushed anything. I love when the happy ending is delivered little by little; you feel it in your bones. When you have instalove, you know something extra dramatic is going to break someone’s heart, right? Then after so many tears, the happy ending will arrive. Well, here that doesn’t happen. You’re in for a journey of growth, of first times, of putting yourself out there and try new things.

I love astronomy and the stars so I loved it even more because of Jun’s chapters! I loved every single part of it. I already want to read it again! This review is a mess; I wanted to say so much without really spoiling anything and I don’t know if I succeeded. There is so much I haven’t said so if you decide to read it, as you really should do, you will be in for a lovely surprise!

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[ARC] My Lavender Boyfriend by Marina Ford

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4stars

Often when I was alone in bed, which was pretty much every night, I had this feeling of phantom arms embracing me. I don’t know if this was a sign of my loneliness or what, but it was as though my body remembered what it was like to be with someone, even while I was forgetting.

Title: My Lavender Boyfriend
Author: Miranda Ford
Number of pages: Don’t know, it doesn’t say (kindle edition)
Expected publication: May 23rd 2018
Good things about this book: Simon is adorable and I like a lot how the book is written.
Bad things about this book: It was different from what it was told it was going to be.
Do I recommend it? Yes, give it a try.
Rate: 4/5

Read the summary and add this book on Goodreads: here

ARC from NetGalley

Awww this book was so sweet and adorable yet it was still missing something, but it didn’t have the drama or miscommunication I usually find in romance novels and for that I was glad. And also for that this will get 4 solid stars from me!

Simon, screenwriter now film professor is asked to be in a fake relationship with gorgeous actor Nick because Nick needs to clean his name and image and being with Simon can be exactly what he needs for the public to see him as a new and improved person. Nick was the sweetest and he got handy and flirty and you could see how not fake it was from him. I wish there was more about him, I feel like I’m missing so much more cuteness from that sweet big boy!

What was it missing, though? Well, this book promised me it was going to be about Simon and Nick being fake boyfriends then, obviously, developing real feelings, fall madly in love and have a happy life together. While it delivered what was promised, at the same time, it sort of didn’t. It was in the background. Nick felt like a side character, one of those who interact a lot with the main character but isn’t as important to the story. But Nick was important; without him, Simon would have never done everything he did, he would have never confronted his demons.

It still was a sweet story because what we saw about Simon and Nick, however small, was enough to understand why they went from strangers to lovers without much drama or words not said. It all flowed quietly and slowly, perfectly. Then, though, the story was much more about Simon and his dealing with his past and problems and the romance was left on the background. The title is “My Lavender Boyfriend” so I was hoping of having more of that.

This book was like the movie My Big Fat Wedding, a movie I hope you all have seen because it’s adorable. You’ll think the movie, if you read the title, is about the wedding, how the two main characters fall in love and tie the knot. Well it’s not about it. The movie is about the main character rediscovering herself, being the best person she can be, confronting her demons, her family, standing up for herself and finding true love that she didn’t think she was ever going to find. Also, this is one of the very few romantic comedies without drama in it and I loved every second of it.

This book is exactly like that movie; Simon’s love story is important and it’s adorable, you see how he starts relaxing when he is with Nick and you see how this peculiar fake relationship makes him grow. Simon confronts his past in the form of his ex-boyfriend who broke his heart, his present in the form of his family and his work, and his future in the form of Nick and a love story that promises wonders.

Long story short, I really liked this book, so full of sweetness, ambition, hope, and love. I started it and didn’t want to put it down. When a book manages to make me want to lose sleep, I say it’s a book worthy of the attention of everyone looking for a tiny piece of happiness in their everyday life. It did bring me joy so I’m hoping it’ll bring some to you, too.

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[ARC] Fourteen Summer by Quinn Anderson

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5stars

“I need your humor. I need your support. And I need you to get me to put on real clothes and leave the house every now and then, because otherwise I’ll become one of those weird recluses with twelve pet reptiles who writes articles about how millennials are killing the sock industry.”

Title: Fourteen Summers
Author: Quinn Anderson
Number of pages: 287 (kindle edition)
Expected publication: May 21st 2018
Good things about this book: Nice characters, nice story, nice romance, nice themes. I liked it a lot.
Bad things about this book: There was a part I thought now of the characters was overreacting a bit but maybe I can’t consider it bad since it’s only something that bothered me.
Do I recommend it? Yes, it’s really sweet.
Rate: 5/5

Read the summary and add this book on Goodreads: here

Arc from NetGalley

Sweet, sappy, a tad melodramatic, cheesy AF: simply adorable. When I finished the book I could barely see, I was squinting my eyes so much trying to make sense of my feelings. I needed rest but I promise I had such a big smile on me face! It was so cute to see, trust me.

Max and Aiden are identical twins. They have lived all their lives being “the twins” and Aiden, the introvert one, has always lived his life being “Max’s brother”. He wants to be his own person, other than the twin of a brother he fights with all the time but that he loves with all his heart. Surprise!! After 10 years not seeing each other, the twins run into Oliver, their long lost best friend from their youth. He is all grown up and hot, and also very gay. Aiden, also being gay, is all the more on edge in his proximity. Boy’s hormones are something else and some things can’t be hidden. The “feelings” are pretty obvious.

This was what happened when two introverts tried to flirt. They ended up with a lot of awkward silences and not-staring contests while they each waited to see if the other one was going to make a move. If Oliver gave Aiden one more lingering look from afar, he was going to become the protagonist of a YA novel.

Unfortunately the sparks between Oliver and Aiden, make Max feel excluded and he starts feeling all kinds of things, making him annoying and rude. Both twins and Oliver must face obstacles during this summer who promises to be one to remember: but if it’s worth it, then things can’t stay wrong forever, right? That’s what I hoped from the beginning, my heart heavy with angst and frustration. Those boys sure knew how to keep me on my toes. I was a little mess but this is not a long book so I didn’t have to wait much to know my sentence.

Fourteen Summers had a promising summary and it lived to its potential. I didn’t expect it to have some kind of scenes but I was also glad it did. They were right, never too much or unnecessary. It dealt with themes familiar to people with siblings and divorced parents but even if you don’t see yourself in them, you will still enjoy being a part of their journey. They grow up in such a short time; they needed a beautiful green-eyed boy to let their castle crumble only to be rebuilt stronger and bigger and more beautiful.

“Way to get all sappy, dude. I blame all those foreign films you’ve been watching. They’ve made you broody.”

Sweet Mother of Cheese, how I love (and sometimes hate) romance novels! They make my heart ache with feelings I long to have. You know, to love and be loved in return? That feeling. To quote my newly found life motto “Dum Spiro, Spero”, there’s still hope for me since I’m still breathing. Let’s keep in hoping because someday love will find me and a crazy summer, like the one of Aiden, Max and Oliver, might become true in my future. I’m okay with spring, winter or autumn, I’m not picky.

Stop it, Aiden. Your oldest friend is back in your life. Try being happy instead of hormonal.

Aiden, dear, the “heart” wants what the “heart” wants. *wink wink*

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The Pick Up by Allison Temple

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4stars

“I need you. I need you to tell me when I’m being an idiot, and when my pickup lines cross the cheese threshold.”

Title: The Pick Up
Author: Allison Temple
Number of pages: 337 (kindle edition)
Good things about this book: It’s adorable and sweet.
Bad things about this book: The misunderstandings really throw me off but I was patient and was rewarded in the end.
Do I recommend it? Yes, I do.
Rate: 4/5

Read the summary and add this book on Goodreads: here

Every few months I go to NetGalley and request some soon-to-be-available titles that have cute covers and interesting stories. Every few months I get turned down for most but the few I get approved rarely disappoint me. The Pick Up had a super cute cover and a story that got me questioning how the two main characters could make things work. I was in for the happy ending that I was sure I was going to get. Come on, you don’t throw that kind of cover for a story that’s going to have a bitter ending, right? No way!

A few months after the death of his wife and best friend, Kyle is struggling with life so he packs his things and takes his daughter back with him to his dad’s house and the town he left behind after finishing high school. He meets Mr. Adam Hathaway, his daughter Caroline’s first grade teacher. It’s almost lust at first sight. Kyle is bisexual and his heart hadn’t made that much beating since he became a widow, and Adam wasn’t planning on finding someone like Kyle when all he wanted was to lay low and avoid unnecessary complications. Life has a way to make things work even in the messiest of lives.

I have to admit that I usually get a lot affected by the ratings. I try not to but the number gets stuck in my head. Seeing that this book had less than 4 stars got me a little anxious. I’m usually easily pleased so I wasn’t really worried. If this book didn’t have the elements I usually hate in books, then I was going to be okay. And I was. I was entertained, my heart did weird things, joy and sadness mixed well together and I was giggling, gasping, smiling softly at those two dumb men and their attempt to understand what was going on between them.

Losing someone you love is hard; everywhere you see their presence, you get daily reminders of their absence, thinking about them is easy yet so hard at times. Grieving never ends; it gets easy with time but you will forever miss that person and someone else will never fill the void they left. That doesn’t mean you won’t be happy anymore. As I said, life has ways to surprise you. Some may think that Kyle was getting himself involved with Adam too soon after the death of his wife but there’s no soon or late, there’s not a settled time to grief, there are no rules to your heart. You are not really moving on, you are only finding happiness when you thought happiness didn’t have a place in your heart at least for a while.

“Seriously though, we have to work on your blushing thing.”
“I don’t blush!” Adam said, while his face heated up more.

Kyle didn’t thought he was going to feel so much for Adam, he wasn’t looking for love when he looked at him that first time. Kyle has so much going on with Caroline, with his job, with the memories of his wife and the panic attacks that not having a clue what to do with his life causes him. But maybe, just maybe, even if loving Adam wasn’t planned and it came when it wasn’t ideal, it was exactly what Kyle needed. Maybe he will find his place in this new world without his wife, with a six-year-old girl obsessed with princesses, a father who sighs loudly at his vegetarian cuisine, and a man who teaches the food groups but only buys from the frozen isle at the supermarket.

I was happy to get to know the both of them better with the two different POVs narration. Getting to know both sides, both inner monologues, make it easier to empathize and understand what’s really going on. It also makes you angrier because you can clearly see the misunderstandings forming and you can’t do anything but wait and hope they speak and work it out.

I am happy I read this book and I liked a lot the writing style. Will I be coming back for more from this author? You bet I will!

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[ARC] New Heights by Quinn Anderson

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4stars

There’s gotta be something wrong with me. A stranger is glaring at me, and I think it’s hot.

Title: New Heights
Author: Quinn Anderson
Expected publication: March 12th 2018
Number of pages: 140 (kindle edition)
Good things about this book: It’s a sweet and adorable and very easy to get into it.
Bad things about this book: Nothing, I enjoyed everything.
Do I recommend it? Yes
Rate: 4/5

Read the summary and add this book on Goodreads: here

ARC given to me by NetGalley

An adorable little book with two cute guys, feelings all over the place, and with the right amount of cheese. I kept smiling and it made me feel good. Will I find my soul mate at the airport one day? Will they be there for me to find? I sure hope so; I’m in need of a little cheese in my cheeseless life.

James is just like me, anxious about the little things, afraid of being late, of missing his flight back home, of forgetting something at the hotel. He is a thousand hours early to the airport and if that’s not me, I don’t know what is. You never know what can happen so it’s best to be early and wait rather than run for your life not to miss your flight.

“No! Someone as fun and easygoing as you doesn’t drink ? I never would have guessed.”
“Hey, I’m fun.”
“Uh-huh. You put the ‘fun’ in ‘funeral.’”

Totally opposite to James is Mika. He travels for work, is carefree and really could be at the airport one minute before embarking and he’d still be chill about the whole situation. I don’t know if I envy him or if he makes me more anxious than I usually am. He hates people mispronouncing his name and I can understand it because, come on, Mika is clearly not Micah. It’s so easy that it’s really infuriating people not saying is right. I feel for you Mika, even if my name is not one that tends to be said wrong.

James and Mika start a sort of airport war after their flight gets delayed and they are forced to take turns to charge their electronic stuff. Little pranks, conversations and a few drinks later, it’s pretty obvious they want to be in each other pants and I don’t blame them. They’re both hot, single, they have time to kill, so why not? Oh well, you have to read it to see the feelings flying around an airport I didn’t know existed until yesterday. How they change a bit in just a few pages and it’s not forced, not rushed. It’s a short book yet everything is in the right place.

“I didn’t notice the color of his eyes, sir.”
Of course you didn’t. Because you’re not as weird and inappropriate as I am.

You think, yes, this can happen. This maybe has already happened to somebody. Because, why not? Airports are not really a place where you meet someone you can fall in love with, but it’s not impossible, right? Hard, yes but if fate tries to set you up, why would you turn down the opportunity?

Adorable and funny, short and hard to put down once you start it. It’s the perfect book to read if you need a little bit of cheese and if you need to smile a bit. I needed it.

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[ARC] How Do You Like Me Now? by Holly Bourne

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4stars

‘You can be difficult, and yet someone will find it so easy to love you.’

Title: How Do You Like Me Now?
Author: Holly Bourne
Expected publication: June 14th 2018
Number of pages: 368 (kindle edition)
Good things about this book: It’s a great representation of being a woman in her 30s.
Bad things about this book: The kindle version of this ARC had some issues but they won’t be present on the final product so that’s okay.
Do I recommend it? Yes, worth a read.
Rate: 4/5

Read the summary and add this book on Goodreads: here

ARC given to me by NetGalley

I requested this ARC because I love Holly Bourne and how she writes. She usually strikes a nerve with every single book I read and this wasn’t the exception. I am 32 years old like Tori and I don’t know exactly what it is that I want to do with my life. And I’m afraid, just like her, that it may be too late and that I have to settle with whatever or whoever stumbles upon my way because then I’ll be an old lady and nobody will want me anymore.

I, too, worry about new little wrinkles on my forehead and under my eyes. I, too, worry that my body is getting old to have children and the pressure I feel seeing people younger than me or my age already with big families and so very much in love, is barely tolerable. I, too, am a strong woman with principles like I defend with whatever I can but I have weaknesses and insecurities that more often than not make me question my whole existence.

Tori is a very relatable character. She lies to herself and to the world to maintain an image she wants to portrait and that it’s not the person she is. It takes millions of selfies for her to get the right one to share in which she looks naturally beautiful but that it needed the right light, angle, filter and natural make up to achieve. She has written a self-help book about what a mess it is being in your 20s and now that she is in her 30s, the mess is still there, only mutated. But Tori can’t afford to disappoint her fans telling them that she isn’t happy in her long term relationship, that she starves herself to look the right kind of thin, that she doesn’t have any idea about her next book, that she sees her friends getting married and having children and that she secretly wants it for herself even if, at first, she wasn’t so sure.

It’s not fair to set people tests and then get annoyed when they fail them.

I may not agree with Tori’s decisions or how she acts but I can see why she did what she did. But being 32 is not decrepit old, like Tori seems to think. We are not falling apart, we are not nearly expired. There’s no schedule. No deadline. No pressure. Even if the world seems to expect so much from us and it’s overwhelming. Don’t get me started on panic attacks. Freaking out is part of the process, I suppose. Tori could be selfish, very insecure and egocentric. Always pursuing the idea of happiness she had in her mind. Tori made lots of mistakes and I often wanted to slap her (with love) to wake her up from the fantasy she was living. She could be pretty annoying but we all are, right? That’s not her flaw; it’s one of our many endearing qualities. Right?

I am a fan of YA book even if I’m very much not a young adult anymore. I do feel still pretty young, though. But I’m also always happy to read books about characters my age, someone I can really relate to. Life is hard and after 30 it doesn’t magically fix itself and let you live the life you’ve always dreamt. Unfortunately, it doesn’t work like that and it takes you by surprise with twists and tons of obstacles be them money, love, anxiety, or the sweet sweet fear of not being able to achieve what we were hoping to achieve before we were too old. One day you’ll wake up and think, yes, I’m old, and no, I’m not doing what I thought I’d be doing. And your brain will short-circuit for a bit. Again, this is part of the process of surpassing your 30s.

Turning thirty is like playing musical chairs. The music stops and everyone just fucking marries whoever they happen to be sitting on.

Long story short, this is a great book for everyone, not only for women in their 30s like myself. I think it can help giving you an insight of the future if you are younger, or giving you memories, bad or good, about your past if you are older. It’s for you either if you are living the dream or if you are struggling. It may help you understand more about what you do every day unconsciously and it may help you see things through a different light. I know it helped me. It gave me hope. I’m not late for anything; I’m just getting wherever I’m getting at my own pace and I don’t have to feel ashamed for not doing what everyone else thinks you’re supposed to be doing at my age. I will let myself be me. With love. With strength. With a big smile on my face.

I hope you’ll give it a chance and read it as soon as it comes out in June because it’s worth the little time it actually takes to read it once you start it and realize you can’t put it down. Trust me.

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